Well, I'm back nearly 3 months later. For someone who wants to write as a hobby, I really have a lot of trouble writing.
I struggle with a lot of self-doubt. The idea that anyone would ever want to read anything that I have written is completely absurd to me. Especially a blog where I would have to write about myself. Nobody is interested in me.
At 52 years old, I am still trying to decide what I want to be when I grow up. What am I good at? Am I good at anything? I have no idea. I don't think anyone has ever told me that I'm good at something.
I just need to exterminate these brain weasels.
Here's the thing about writing, and any other profession or hobby that you want to do: You need to do it first. Are you good at it? No. Probably not yet. But until you stick to doing something and commit to it and actually DO IT, you're never going to improve and get to SEE if you are any good at it. Right now, the brain weasels are just keeping you locked into a self-deprecating cycle of mean, critical thoughts that aren't true. You want to do it, but because you aren't good at it yet, you won't do it, but to get good at it, you have to do it, but you won't do it because you aren't good at it yet, but you want to do it, but because you aren't good at it yet, you won't do it, but to get good at it, you have to do it, but you won't do it because — BECAUSE BECAUSE BECAUSE. Enough. Stop. Take a breath. Do the thing. DO IT LADY!
ReplyDeleteI am back and you still have yet to do the thing. DO IT LADY!!!
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